au naturel

letting you go is probably the hardest thing i have to put up with right now. i know it’s not easy, but i know i had to sooner or later. i never really had you, so it’s not much of an issue. but the friendship we shared was more than wonderful, and that’s probably the hardest thing to let go of. the friendship’s not gonna end, i know. but let’s leave it to that.

every thing was just right…

it’s just that the whole thing is turning a little too complicated. fueled with the tiny talks here and there — it’s bound to heat up and it might burn. though half of what they say might not be true, but it matters still. i’m only human, i’m sorry.

at least we had each other for the while. it was great while it lasted. and it’d be one of the great things i’d keep for the rest of my insane existence. one the best things i had before i leave here. i never get to thank you for that.

anyway, thanks for the wild ride.

minutes and minutes quickly tick away, yet the only thing that keeps on running in my head is how to get away with everything that’s going on right now. it should have ended like it never started… but the unspoken question hovers around the air - what’s to end when there was nothing in the first place?

precisely. and that’s exactly the dilemma behind the whole thing — what’s to stop, when there was zilch. i found myself thinking "shit! what’s happening?"

hell, this ain’t easy.