au naturel

aA year and a half dragged by since we parted ways. We’ve been hurt, and I guess we needed the break. I cried for a long time, and felt numb. And I did everything I had to do, so I can fully claim - "I’ve gotten over you."

You came tumbling back into my life in the form of a text message. After a week of polluting the lines with our messages, you appeared in front of my face. So, this time you made it real — you came.

Let me talk in terms of my emotions: I don’t know what to say. You are like an apparition that I tried to keep in my past, and now I see you walking in front of me. You even felt real when I hugged you. Something undefined filled me. I tried to contain it inside, and I was successful. But I couldn’t stop the smile creeping out of my face. Yeah, this feels good.

Let me talk to you: I’d be honest — I was dreading the moment I would finally see you. I’m dreading the fact that something I tried so hard to get over with would come rushing back after seeing you vis-a-vis. I’m dreading the fact that I might prove myself wrong with the fact that I’m over you. But at the same time, seeing you would finalize one thing — closure.

I loved you, and I don’t love you less. You will always be part of me, but I just want to prove to myself that I’m in control with whatever goes on inside me. I have to thank you for all the memories.

Seeing you made me happy. And I’m glad you did come.

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